When saying sorry isn't enough

Babe, I'm terribly sorry. You have planned so much for me. And planned perfectly. When you called me on skype, I was just stunned. All the balloons. The candles on the cake and you! I just don't know what to say.

After blowing the candles and my dad knocked the door, I just wanted to ignore it and celebrate my birthday with you. You see, I don't really like celebrating my birthday. Yes, it is a celebration of your birth but I always think what I have done for all this while, is there anything great I did for my whole 20 years? I am not talking about making money or etc, I am talking about being a good human being and being the person I want to be. I got this idea from Raj's elder brother when his parents wanted to throw him a grand 21st birthday party.

I felt so bad and guilty after not returning back to you. You packed your decorations for which you decorated for hours. I have been thinking and I have not been treating you the way you deserve to be treated. I will not stop saying sorry and I will not stop feeling bad. I will make it up to you. I don't know how but I promise I will.

Honestly, I have got my wish for all my birthdays already. You. I need you in my life forever. And that is all I need.

Once again, I am extremely sorry. I promise to change and be a better man for you. To treat you better. You are the best thing that happen to me and I will do anything to keep you with me. To keep you happy and safe. I LOVE YOU, JOY VIDAD. Thank you for caring so much for me. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for everything.