I don't know how to say how I feel. Honestly, when you left to the airport, I was a bit relief. Just for those few seconds. I mean, now I can do whatever I want.
But then.... I feel lonely, babe. I realised how much your presence mean. Even if we are doing our own thing, you being there with me, even on Skype, feels so much better than you were gone. I don't mean that I only left it yesterday and not whenever I go outfield or to camp, just that, now I don't have much to do and you will be moving to a different timezone. I know you are going to visit them and not move there but still...
I also realised how grateful I am that we are both living in the same timezone and it is easy for us to
Skype and talk normally. Thank god for that. Or the universe or fate.. I don't know.
Skype and talk normally. Thank god for that. Or the universe or fate.. I don't know.
When we Skyped for the first time when you reached to the house, I felt kinda.. I don't know how to say..
I just want to be there with you so badly. I don't really like being here and in a different timezone. You asleep while I be awake and vice versa... Maybe, this is how you felt.. what you went through when I was in Krabi. But I didn't much of it cause not much of a difference of the timezone and being occupied with the training and all.
Even now... you just woke up and had your shower. Its morning there and its 23:29 here... I just don't like that we are in a different timezone. Makes me feel like... we are even farther. But, don't worry. I will be fine. Its not a permanent thing. You went through it when I was in Krabi. Not fair that you went through it and I don't. I know you miss me, babe. I miss you too. And love you so much too.
Sigh... Can't wait to move in and live with you. Be with you 24/7!Loving you always, babe. And of course, missing from you so badly. I know you feel the same about me. Don't have to tell me that. I can feel your love and missing-ness?? from Vancouver. ooooo.. that was chessy ah?? hahahaahaha. Missing you so much, too much, very much right now... hahaha
Your babycakes,
Shankara
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