How are You Not Afraid?

Dear Babycakes,

I owe you an apology. I am sorry for filling you with doubt. You're right about everything. To me it didn't seem like "we have to end up together" until you made me realize that I was actually giving you an ultimatum, which is unfair to you and more importantly, to us. I lost sight of why we're together. I've been looking through a different lens recently - the time and effort spent on our relationship will dissolve into nothing if things don't work out the way we planned when I should be thinking, "if it works out, it will be great; if it doesn't, I would be grateful for everything."

I wanted to control the future not realizing that doing so will affect the present which may lead to no future at all. Maybe it's because I don't want to be without you that made me so fearful of the future. Please tell me how you do it. How are you not scared?


Love,
Lum Lum