I reached to Singapore on the 9th August. Taking a 9.10pm flight on 8th August. I am still thinking of whether I should post of our 6 days together. For now, I'll do our last day.
We slept at 5am. We watched the sky turn from pink to blue at the balcony. We hugged each other while I smoked. We didn't talk much. Although we are looking at the morning sky, we know that we are already missing each other and trying to not think about my leaving that night.
Joy slept immediately. Yeah, she really is a sleepyhead. hahaha. I just couldn't sleep well. I am missing her so much. It's our last night sleeping together. I closed my eyes for a while. Woke up at 8 and slept back. Woke up at 10 and saw her, still sleeping peacefully. I couldn't sleep anymore. I went to make coffee and cried a bit while making. Took number 2 but my stomach was still giving problems from that night. I just smoked a few more and packed my stuff. At 11, she woke up. Gave her a morning kiss. Gosh, I love her kisses.. Always do. Still missing each other so much. I kissed her and told her, "Don't think about it. We've got a day to spend together." We took a shower together.. I like taking showers with her. Shampooing her hair, massaging her head and her body. And rinse her smooth, beautiful skin. And drying her hair. We got dressed, had a small breakfast and hugged each other on the couch. Waiting for the time to be 12pm.
We got to the reception, and check out. Due to some minor problems with my visa card, we got delayed for an hour. We cracked jokes on how our days were and the funny incidents that happened. But we just know that deep down we are so sad of what is going to happen that night. After checking out, we went to ATC. Joy suggested that I wait at the San Mig's Pub for her while she goes to BF Homes and get the car. But I don't want that. No matter how troublesome it is, I just want to be with her. So, after checking in my luggage at the supermarket, we went to BF Homes. Taking the jeep and then the tricycle. We got down at the Starbucks outside her place. She got me Hazelnut Latte and I waited there while she goes home to leave her stuff there and get the car.
We drove off to Festival Mall where we got Pepper, our first pet hamster. He is so cute and energetic. And strong too. Then we drove off to ATC. I need to go for number 2 urgently cause of the drinks and coffee. Then we just had our lunch and beers at San Mig's Pub. We really do like it. I lied on her shoulder and cried saying I don't want to leave. I love her so much. We cried a bit. We just were quiet and tried avoiding the the matter. Well, she was. I noticed that she didn't look at me for the whole day. Not as much as she normally would. I told her about this. She said she would cry if she looks at me in the eye.
We left at 4pm and went to the park where she and her friends usually hang out. It a nice park but due to the rain, we couldn't go out. We just sat in the car and hugged each other. Kissing and crying. Telling each other how much we love each other and not wanting this to happen. Wanting to stop this train. Its a feeling of great sadness and missing her a lot. The very thought of it will set your eyes in tears and your heart feeling so painful. A deep pain. At 6.30pm, her mum called. She needs the car at 7. So, we quickly and have to go to BF Homes. She dropped me off at the California Buffalo Wings and ordered Ice Cream Chesse Cake. Then she went off home. I told the waitress to put the dessert in the frezzer to wait for Joy. I stood outside waiting for her. Watching every car that passes by and having my cigarette. I took her jacket, formally mine, as it started to rain. Put the jacket around her and went in. She asked if we can take away as we don't much time left. It was 7.30pm then. I said, " Up to you".
Put the stuff in the car and we drove off to the airport. Honestly, I don't want to reach the airport early. I was praying for the flight to get cancelled. I just don't want to go. I don't want to leave her. She is my home. Not Singapore. Not my parents. JOY. I fed her while she drive. Since its an automatic gear car, we held hands while she drive. We parked at the parking lot and walked up to the Depature hall. It's a small terminal so, she can't come in. While walking to there, I saw the Arrival hall and the place we met 6 days ago. Tears just rolled down. Joy saw it too. We just can't believe that everything happened so fast. It all feels like a dream. It's like everything happened yesterday.
It was 8pm. We hugged each other so much. So tightly. I don't care if people are staring. SO WHAT?!? We love each other so much. These 6 days of being together. Finally hugging, kissing, feeling, lying, sleeping, eating and everything physical each other were so beautiful. Actions truly speaks louder than words and we understand and appreciate that. We cried so much and I tell her that no matter what people say, she is beautiful and smart. She really is and people should treat her properly. At 8.15pm, I joined the line and i kept looking back at Joy. As soon as we lost sight of each other, I just burst in tears. I never stopped crying the whole time. In the plane, I couldn't sleep. I just stared at the window and replaying all the times we had together. As the plane flew further and further away from Philippines, I was screaming for Joy in my mind and heart. I just I want to get off the plane and be with her. Always. I kind of hate this day. Not because I am leaving her but also we couldn't spend time being alone. And even if we did, I would still hate this day.
Right now, I love her more than ever. My doubts are cleared. I have THE one. Joy is the one. We are missing each other terribly and lost to live on our daily lives without being there for each other physically. But, this is life. You cannot have happiness all the time. In everything, there is the equal balance of happiness and misery. Especially, LOVE. But you have to know if that love is worth going through all this. Ours is. We will endure this. We will come out of this and love each other unconditionally. Now that we have felt each other, we want each other badly. Very very badly.
"Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger."Our love will get stronger. We assure you.
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