I will always be with you.

To my Joy,

I wanted to write a proper letter than the one I gave you. I couldn't imagine leaving you after meeting for the first time and leaving you more because of NS. I just wanted to wait and feel everything then write a letter to you but you said its not worth mailing to you. So, this is the other letter. The proper one.

The first meet up.. By God, its so beautiful. I never felt so comfortable with anyone before. Sure, it was kinda awkward at first but after that it was ok and I feel so relaxed being with you. I can't believe that we met, felt each other and made love to each other. Looking back at it right now, kinda feels like a dream.

I didn't feel like I was with my girlfriend. It feels like my best friend as well as someone so dear to me that a single cigarette burn on you and I am so concern over it. Joy, have you ever wondered why I made you change sides when we walk back to the Hotel? Why I made you walk further from the road than me? I prefer walking closer to the road so that, if any vehicles lose control, you have the better chance of safety than me. That's me. I care for you more, love. I really do.

It still hurts so much to be away from you like this. It really does. I never slept last night well. Thinking about NS and how my freedom will be restrain and all. Mostly, talking to you whenever I want. I just can't stand that freedom being strip off. I hate it so much. I know its 5 months but I just hate it. I kept waking up every 30 mins, looking at the clock, thinking of you and fell asleep. I cried a bit.

Sigh, times are getting so hard, love. This is the first day of our 10 years. 10 years of patience. 10 years of long distance. 10 years of Skype. 10 years of "can you hear me?" and etc. 10 years of "bro still playing... :("
10 years of crying. 10 years of laughter. 10 years of doing our own thing but still being together. 10 years of short meet ups now and then. 10 years or Vidhadi. And of course, 10 years of love. Lots and lots of love.

5 months being with you and I don't to go looking for other women. I don't want anyone with my but you. I just want you for my whole life. That's it. Too soon to say? I know but love just happens. With no timing, place and person. I am lucky to find my soul mate on my 1st love. My only love. My true love. Joy.

Baby, my love, I love you so much. My friends and parents might not be supporting us. They might say things about you and us. But I don't care. I know you. I met you. I felt you and kissed you. And I know that you are the perfect one. The only one for me.

It's a tough time now. We will pass through it. Tougher times may come. But we will still get pass it. I rather go through all of this more than live my life without you. We can make it together, love. I know we can and I believe it. We will be together forever.

No matter how far we are apart, how much time we have to be with each other, how busy we are, you will always be in my mind and I will always be in your heart.

I love you. Truly and deeply. Forever and ever. Kisssss.

Your Indian bitch from Singapore,
Shankara