1 year. 12 months. 365 days.

It's finally the first Sunday of the March of 2013.
Time flew so fast. Doesn't feel like a year. Maybe it's cause we only met twice.

A year ago, I was chatting this girl. From Tumblr to Facebook and because the messages in Facebook lagged, we changed to MSN and that's when we confessed our feelings. Just one year ago, I finished my last year of Diploma. I was single and waiting for my NS Enlistment. Just one year ago, I was working for my parents temporarily. Just one year ago, I hang out with my friends almost every night possible, going to the gym, hardly being at home actually and spending my money. The reason I want to come home, well, I want to have a good sleep after drinking so much and of course, I want to chat with this wonderful girl on the other side of the screen. Joy.

I was so nervous about wanting to ask for her facebook. I mean, I clearly like this girl. I never stopped thinking about her. I wanted to come home all the time, check my Tumblr messages. I even just spent the time refreshing the messages every hour. But I have no idea how to move on or what might happen if I asked for her facebook and well, if we get into relationship. I never knew LDR existed. I didn't even know if I want to be in a relationship with her. I mean, how would it work? Will it go on? or die? So many questions running in my head at that time. I couldn't think right. I like having this feelings for her. And I really do love talking to her. I don't want to stop but I'm afraid what it might lead to. Is it what I want? And to top it off, I don't want to give her the wrong idea of asking her facebook. How to ask a girl for her facebook without sounding desperate. But, cool, casual, as a friend. What if she says no? What then? It would be awkward. That's when Kugan De Ron (that's what he calls himself at times) came in. He helped me a bit. Supportive, yes he was.  I typed the things i wanted in the text box and asked to check for me. Making sure it's not obvious. And talked to him how perfect Joy is. He agrees about the whole girls listening to rock is a jackpot and when he heard about she liking rugby, he was like "Duuuuuude.. She's the one!" And I was like all Ted Up and thinking yeah! Maybe she is. Ok, to cut it short, took me a looooong time to ask for her facebook and she gave it to me and asked for mine.

Facebook: Such a fantastic idea, isn't it? I used to play games. Then try to stalk girls that I have crush on. Adding my old friends and all. When I first saw Joy's facebook.... My God.. I was speechless. She isn't the type to wear skinny jeans or slutty clothes or even any of those girls wear that guys eye soo much and drool when they see. Joy is the girlfriend material type. Truly. She is the understanding one. She is the fun one to hang out with. She's the one who would tell her boyfriend girl stuff. Stuff not other girls will tell. She's the one who is straightforward and honest. Not like, "I'm fine" but want you to really hug them or like give tests to the boyfriends all the time to prove that he cares for her. No, that's not Joy. She will tell it honestly and openly. No test, nothing. She's the best friend who is a girl any guy would love to have.
When I saw her pictures, my feelings for her grew. To me, looks play a little part and she is simply beautiful. She gave "beautiful" it's meaning. One look at this girl and you'll realise everything about her is beautiful. Yes, she isn't slim. She is chubby. But when I saw her on facebook, it didn't matter me. Not one bit. I really saw her for what she truly is. B. E. A. U. T. I. F. U. L.

After we confessed and we decided to be in a relationship over the long distance, we spent all the time we have together. At work, I would be facebook messaging her. We would hardly sms as it's expensive. everything was good. We had our perfect week with no parents in the house. That was the first time we drank together. The first time we played together. And the first time we kissed each other (one the screen). The first time, I said "I love you". It was fast. I admit it. Too soon. But I can't tell Joy, I like you all the time. I know that it's much more than that. I know that the kind of girlfriend I want, who Joy is, is not a girlfriend material. It's more. It's the kind of woman I want to spend my life with. I want to spend the rest of my life with her. She is the first person I saw cried for me. Realised how much she loves me. How much she cares for me and our relationship. Before our first month, we love each other. We want to live together. We want to start a family of our own. We want to be our own kind. We want to be together forever.

These 12 months have not been easy. I have to admit it. It was tough. Times when we would be worried for each other's safety. Times when we wish we can be in each other's arms and be merry. Times when we wish we could be by each other's side to comfort one another. Times when the net broke down. Times when parents were not supportive. Times when pets/friends past away. Times when we couldn't see nor talk to each other for a few days to 2 weeks. Times when we couldn't be part after meeting.
Many ups and downs. Not because of the long distance but also the race/religion and others.

But looking back all those months, the times we had together and pushed on. I wouldn't regret it. I wouldn't say it should for the better. I am right where I want to be now. With my Joy. 1 year has passed with its surprises and all. Still another 9 more years to go be together and forever as husband and wife. We have come so far, but there is a long way to go. Like Joy said, "let's turn up the volume and enjoy the road together."

I love you, baby. You are THE best thing ever. And will always be. You're not just any girl. You're my girl. My lady. You're not my girlfriend. You're my woman. My wife-to-be. The mother of my kids. My life. My everything. My soul mate. Kiss. Happy 1st Anniversary.