Took my time to reach home, and I regret this terribly.
Got home around 10.30, after showering, pooping and washing my clothes. But during this time, Joy's internet service provider was down. We couldn't skype. We couldn't see each other. I felt so sad. It's like not worth booking out.
Friday passed by with her working and me meeting my friend. She took the one-full-day Phone net, but the connection isn't good enough. We couldn't skpe for long. The net went off and on, but we did see each other a bit. I was soo looking forward to seeing her. To talk to her. To hear her voice. It was suppose to be our long weekend. I don't feel like meeting my friends or going out with my family. Even now, we can't skype, I still want to be with my computer, waiting for the chance of the internet to come back and immediately skyping her.
She is the No. 1 reason why I make sure I book out on Friday or earlier. Spend as much of my possible book out time with her as I can. Listen to her week, tell her my week in camp, and just being with her while we do our own things.
I miss her so so much. We hate it. Hate this fucked up internet service provider so much! But what else can we do? If I go out, I might lose the chance to see her and spend time with her, and even if I'm out, my heart, mind and soul will be revolving around Joy. I am hoping that we could have time to spend together again next weekend. Hoping the internet will be on our side again, this time.
Yes, I am depressed. Depressed of not seeing my love, who makes my world so bright and beautiful. But I know, we will see each other again. I know, we still love each other a lot. I know, that this 10 years will pass by and we will finally be together. And I love you so so very much, my beautiful Joy.
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